Go West Bunny...

So my most recent adventures took me out West. Not quite all the way to the coast; but to Nevada. Get paid for sex when there's a camera crew in front of you and it's called porn. Take the camera away and it's prostitution. In Nevada it's legal; but only in some counties and only in legal brothels.

I chose the best place I could find from my research. Considering they get 1,500 women a month trying to get in there (times are tough), it was complimenting to have received such a quick response to my photos. I have visited the ranch twice now. What an adventure!

Applying for my work card at the sherrif's office was a trip. There's something highly unnatural about walking in and casually telling the woman at the desk you're there to apply for a work card for a prostitute.

An Icon Passes On

For those of you who haven't heard...Bettie Page died last night. She was placed on life support last week after suffering a heart attack. Before the heart attack she'd been hospitalized for three weeks with pneumonia. Her family decided, last night, to remove her from life support after she hadn't regained consciousness.

Although her body was mortal, her image will remain forever youthful and devilishly playful.

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For those of you who have written to me expressing their appreciation for my blog, thank you!
I plan to begin doing so again and bringing you up to speed very soon.

Peace!

No wind in the sails....So I had been invited to be in Miami this week with a burlesque troupe who was performing at two different venues. I was invited to perform (if I wanted) and to sell the DVD.
Things being what they are, perhaps I'll burn a few each night instead to keep us warm *smirk*.
I have to start cleaning out the house now anyway.

Paper wings......And um, hey, is this a stress response??

So, I've been dealing with quite a bit of stress these days (understatement) on many fronts. A lot of fires to put out and I've no firehose.

But sometimes, at the end of the day when there's been so much going on, I just put things into perspective and look at what I do have and realize how incredibly lucky I am. It cost nothing and demands nothing of me. And can never be taken from me. And nothing will take me from it. And it makes me realize just how capable I am of truly loving someone unconditionally and without measure. It is my family.

On another subject, or rather while I'm on the subject of stress, I suppose that, when you're under such tremendous amounts of it, release can be amazing when timed just so. I had The. Most. Fantastic. Orgasm. I. Have. Ever. Had. In. My. Life. last night...... Ever. I've had many. This was tops. It was endless and although I confess we haven't even studied the book we bought on tantra ages ago; it just happened. Magical, it was.
So, I suppose the moral here: That which does not kill you, only gives you mindblowing orgasms?
Thx Laz. If nothing, we'll always have this *smirk*...

The Pull

I've looked around me lately. At my life and what I want from it. Where I want to be. What I want for my family. Lots of things. It frustrates me when I can't make things happen for people and myself in the timeframe and in the way I would like to. And so I have to adapt.
I search for a solution. Looking at my immediate surroundings I see clutter all around me. Maybe it's the springtime; but I feel the urge to back up a truck to the house and send everything to a charity. Just purge myself of all of it, save for the barest of necessities. Then simply pack it up and head west.....

Audrey Maxx on Playboy's: Needy Wives

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Turning The Other Cheek

It has been my experience in past business relationships that, when parting company or severing business ties for whatever the reason, tact and professionalism is key. To simply say “Things just aren’t working out and so I think it’s best we part ways”. This was not the case with someone recently.

Instead I was sliced and diced by someone who I not only had a working relationship with; but, over time, I allowed this person to become part of my family. I don’t allow too many people to get this close to me personally. He has no family of his own. Apparently nor does he have any social skills. He clearly has life-long issues, is hurt by some sick form of jealousy and has decided to attack me. Childishly calling me some particularly hurtful and nasty names. He’s said some terribly hurtful things. Things that have caused me deep pain. Saying that it is what I do with my mouth and my pussy that keeps me owning men. Just for the record, I’m not lacking in the self-esteem department when it comes to intelligence, thank you. I’m quite confident that I can hold a man’s attention purely based on conversation. All while fully dressed.

Instead of lashing back, I’ll make a delicate attempt at turning the other cheek.

It hurts deeply; but that hurt is healing each time I’m contacted by another professional who is eager to work with me or for me. Contacted by others who have worked with me in the past and are excited at the prospect of working with me again. They know I’m professional and don’t resort to low blows the way this person has. My experience speaks for itself. And this is simply one bitter, angry person whose issues are not my own.

Oh Boy.....

Wow, okay so I'm here at the expo and yesterday went to have a look at the booth. The place is MASSIVE. My booth there among so many in this giant place that I'm told floods with thousands of people.

I saw the matted posters of me that will be up. And I saw all the DVD's, the t-shirts, the photos to autograph. They look fantastic. It's unnerving.

Be careful what you wish for. You just might get it.

Breathe...

Okay, so now I guess I'm experiencing some anxiety over this next week's events. I'm getting "fan mail" and friend requests and there are t-shirts that have been made......At the same time one of the magazines I've appeared in did a feature interview with me (this time quite accurate with my quotes I might add. Even my comments on polyamory....yay!). Hey, speaking of poly, have I told you what a fabulously lucky gal I am? Happy, Happy Birthday to my Angel Baby!
Yes, so there's a little added anxiety.
Oh, and have I even mentioned my new DVD? Life's getting big.

Helpless

Someone I love is going through something right now and I'm essentially unable to help. It makes me feel sick and frustrated. But no matter how much love you give to a person, sadly it's a situation where this is something they have to go through alone. Morbidly....similar to a death. Sadly I've been here before myself. It's been so much about me these days; but then suddenly something happens to put things into perspective and then nothing else matters. Note: You won't be alone.


So much has been happening these days. I couldn't possibly catch up...But suffice to say that things are changing in my life in big ways. The DVD is being pressed. I'm getting "fan mail". It's a little surreal. I keep thinking...."How do they know me?"..."I'm not really OUT THERE."....Then I have a reality check when I see myself on the XXX Blog between Ron Jeremy and Jesse Jane and think again...

And I Told One Friend, And Then She Told One Friend, And The He Told One Friend.......

Wow, check me out:
http://www.exxxoticamiami.com/

When you enter, on the main page scroll through the "Exhibitor Preview" box and then through the "Who's Appearing" box just below.

Then you can check out the "XXX Blog" tab near the top. And there I am, between Ron Jeremy and Jesse Jane.

Now got to the "Purchase Tickets" tab in the top, left-hand corner and order yourself a ticket and come see me!

Leaving On A Jetplane

I've been running pretty fast lately, trying to get things prepared for the expo coming up. But I'm not the only one. There are others. My people (ha!)..... that are working around the clock. To them I'm very grateful.

Today I'm off to Miami again for the week. I look forward to only having the laptop and not being able to be fully "connected"'. It'll force me into having some downtime, even if I'm still talking, planning and scheming *smirk*......

Does This Booth Make My Boobs Look Big?

I no longer celebrate Easter in the conventional sense the way my family did when I was young anyway. And so I worked. I was sleepy and hoped to finish last night by around 11pm; but carried on until 2am. "Let me just finish this.....Oh, and this....And this....". There's just so much to do before the expo and such little time in which to do it. But with each media clip I see from past expos, it makes me a little more nervous about having a booth next to these big names. I guess I'm worrying about the size of my, um, booth, compared to the next guy's.......Ha! Get it? It's relative......

My writer girlfriend's convinced there's a certain power in turning 40 now. She tells me..."no wonder the world is orbiting around you right now, spinning around the charm and beauty and fire you possess. You are going to rock this expo!". She's invincible. She decided that this year, the year she turns 40 herself, she's going to run marathons. And she has, and is.

And so I just need to rock....

Small Fish Swimming in a Big Pond of Sexy Beautiful (Young) Fish

Be careful what you ask for (Insert many thanks to Angel here)...... News flash..... Audrey Maxx Enterprises announces on Thursday, March 20th, that the company plans to be an exhibitor at the 2008 Exxxotica Miami Expo in South Beach! Yes, you read it right here. I will have my very own booth at the same expo where the likes of the great big names in the industry will have theirs. While this thrills me, at the same time, it scares the shit out of me. There is soooo.......much to do in a mere 27 days. I will be attending the expo with my dvd ready to market and my website will be live and rolling. We just finished two weeks of full-on work. I couldn't even tell you how many stills we shot... And I've got to sit and go through every one of them, choosing the ones I want for the website's front page, free tour, galleries, etc. We also managed to get in three more videos to add to my store. And all the clips at my store will also be added to the website. And of course there's the dvd. That's the big one. The dizzying good kind of pressure...... Yeh.

Damsel For A Day

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Shameless

Still shoots today. About 350 pics in all. Lots of great pinup shots for the website. We reshot two small scenes for the dvd. Just some fine tuning.
Tomorrow will be fun. Outdoors, flirty girl walking the streets.

I really enjoy what I'm doing. The creativity of it all. Collaborating with Laz on ideas and watching them come to life on film. Sure, there's nudity. There's sex. And what's not to enjoy about that? Especially when I get to enjoy it with Laz? Mmmmmm...... But there's sooo..... so much more to it. Really. This isn't your everyday run-of-the-mill been-there-done-that seen-it all porn. I've already done that. I've got the t-shirt "As Seen In Porn". Seriously.

The project we've been working on is refreshingly different. It leans more towards soft-core rather than "Bang me Baby". While it's got the typical "money shots", that's not the sole aim of this film. There's a story. It's fun, flirty, happy. It feels good. And it looks good. Retro good. I realize I'm saying a lot without perhaps telling you enough. It's all I can do for now. But I believe people will want to see this project. More than just the few of us.

Okay, enough shameless self-promotion for one evening.

Please Fasten Your Seatbelts....

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Looking Ahead...In Baby Steps

I'm looking at a good week ahead.
Normal mom stuff tomorrow. It's fun sometimes just merging into that crowd of capri-wearing cookie bakers. Hey, I can do it. Some of them even like me. Or at least pretend to enough for my son's sake. That's all I care about. I don't know that I could live that life full-time. I can't say I could live my other life full-time either though. In fact, I know I couldn't. I need the domesticity to keep me grounded.
Then Tuesday I'm off to Miami to see my guardian angel. It's just for the day for a few stolen hours. Good enough. I'll appreciate what I have.
The rest of the week will be spent with the photographer I've been working with. We've got some fine tuning needed to finish the dvd. After that it's still shoots for promotional purposes. The rough draft looks soooo.... nice.
Ooh... Audrey, is this optimism I hear?....

Milf On The Prowl

My guardian angel landed on my shoulder again. He's real and is still there when I wake up in the morning. He's made a lot of things possible.

So the video I did for The Score Group is out now. You can check out the fun at: Score On Demand, The Official VOD Site of The Score Group. As you might have guessed it's called "Milfs On The Prowl".
The day of my shoot I was supposed to be shooting with another actress and two male talent. Her test results hadn't come through in time and they already had two guys they were going to have to pay on location. "Audrey....How would you feel about having two guys at once?"............Quiet contemplation.....It's not like I hadn't done it before just for pleasure. And here were two twenty-two year old beautiful young bodies, arm-wrestling over who would get to have me first.
All in all it made for good video (of course that's all I was thinking). Nevermind the bruises I got on my knees from that granite bar. Hey, I bruise easily as I've already mentioned *grin*.....

Bondage and Bruises, The Real Secret Life....

So Friday I had a photo shoot. A bondage shoot with a very reputable actress in the industry. I've worked with her in the past on her clips store. Her clips store is far different from my own. Lots of tying up, tickling and forced orgasm. She's made movies and is a star in the fetish industry. She's partnered with someone else who owns a store, one of the top sellers of the site, and together they hired me for the shoot.
I can't say that I hated it (does that make me a bad person *smirk*). I think that, once he took over, I could easily get more into the struggling and protesting. When you're manhandled in such a capable way it becomes very realistic despite knowing you're in a safe environment. Very arousing. I guess I could never aspire to be the star she is, as I'm still bruised from it *evil grin*. And here I've always wanted to be the one holding the whip.......
I noticed the other day there's a new show out called "The Secret Life of A Soccer Mom". This struck me as very funny. I think the premise is totally off. I guess they give a mom a chance to have the career she would have wanted had she not decided to have a husband and children. At the end she can decide to have both or go back to just being a mom. Not that I think my life is all that interesting (to anyone else but myself); but I should much rather think that my dual/secret life would make for much more interesting reality television. The drama-packed stuff that America feeds upon. Granted, I may not technically be a soccer mom. My son prefers karate; but I am a card carrying member of the PTA (no, really I am). And I live in Stepford, USA, land of playdates, minivans and matching mailboxes. I can hear the promo now...."I may not technically be a soccer mom; but I have played one on a milf site"...
Now to find myself an agent and a channel that wouldn't edit so much of the good stuff....